Yes. We are cooked.

Insane. I can't believe it but my IG reels are being invaded with Sora 2 videos already. I scrolled for maybe 5min today and spotted at least 2 reels I recognised as being AI generated (and probably from Sora 2). From what I gathered from watching pokelawls vods, the timing of events always seems to be really sudden and fast with like consistent timing or something? It's hard to explain until you've seen a bunch of them. It's almost like keyframes or key events are compressed to move from point A > B etc in the video. Anyway, I looked at the comments and a few people picked the first video as being AI (I can't even remember what it was tbh. Thanks IG brainrot). The second, nobody seemed to realise it was AI. It was a 2 part video of an old man destroying registers in a shop and being arrested. Looked incredibly realistic bar the weird movement of the guy getting arrested and unusual choice of actions. I wouldn't have picked it if I didn't take a step back and be like "hold on what's actually going on here and why is this happening".

Anyway, I stopped playing SMT III nocturne. I really love the setting and art style and music but I have such a hard time staying interested in traditional JRPG's. I did manage to beat Matador at least and first try too which I am very proud of. I started playing Silent Hill f instead. NGL I kind of hated it for the first hour or two but now it's properly reeled me in. Annoyed at all of the jumpscares though.

I also spent like 5 hours or so in the city today by myself because all of my friends were busy or I'd recently spent way too much time with them. I wandered around for a bit and got lunch and sat in the park and did nothing for a few hours. Like properly nothing. No phone, no music just sat and laid in the grass. I can't remember when the last time I even did that was. I recently broke up with the woman I thought I was going to marry and have kids with though. I saw so many couples around my age or younger with their little kids running around and it was devastating. I feel a bit sick thinking about it now actually. I'm trying not to give into panic and despair over my future and wanting to start a family.

I keep telling myself, I shouldn't bother reflecting on the "what if"'s I've had in my life and should instead focus on the "what now"

Chat Are We Cooked?

Sora AI v2 dropped this week and it's almost indistinguishable from real TikToks/IG reels. I watched the streamer pokelawls react to his fans creations and it was legitimately insane. Funnily enough I opened IG while I was on the toilet and saw an AI researcher claiming that social media reels are about to be flooded with Sora content and the platforms are likely going to be consumed by it. Normally you can look at like faces, hands, teeth etc or the way people move in AI content and easily pick it, but that doesn't seem to be the case any longer.

I watched a video on the damage done to the brain when relying on AI to explain or teach things to you. The researcher in it (who is also a teacher) claimed that it actively and severely makes you stupider lol. There is supposed to be some kind of tension almost when learning something - you know that feeling, where you take the information in but then internally need to contextualise it and compare it to other things you know. It's hard to explain properly but I'm sure you know the feeling. Anyway, apparently by relying asking AI the answers to things, or breaking down what you've learned if you find it too challenging to process, you're essentially damaging those connections in your brain that allow you to process the information. This essentially leads to your brain just not doing that any longer lol. I think that they're going to start pushing us to use AI at work which I'm not thrilled about because I need to preserve what little cognitive function I actually have!

That in conjunction with how damaging internet culture is, and the discovery in late July that disposable vapes are actually full of lead (one days worth of vape use is >= 20 packs of cigarettes in terms of lead content) I'm legit really worried for late gen Z and gen alpha. Some teenager came onto the trian today for like 1 stop which was all of 4 minutes and was glued to tiktok and vaping in the carriage the entire time. Or maybe I'm just old and too anxious and kids will be kids.

09/23/25 Always Run From Your Problems lol

I just can't focus on making my game at the moment. Casually going through the worst heartbreak of my life as a humble 30-something year old. I can't even keep a straight train of thought and just randomly nearly cry thoughout the day. There's so much shit I need to do and worry about like renewing my lease and trying to afford rent and bills on my own now. I need to buy a car, I need pretty urgent dental work and a blast-over some of my scratcher tattoos to look better for my new job (and myself I guess).

On the bright side, just a few months ago I could barely jog for a minute. Tonight I burst into the gym and casually hit 2.5 miles in 20min and walked out. Easy 250ish calories out the window.

I think I'm going to try and play SMTIII: Nocturne again to distract myself from being sad. I don't really game anymore but I'm going crazy sitting around thinking all day.

09/19/25 The Present is an Inescapable, All-Consuming Noise

I never would have thought that the technology in 2025 would devolve into tools tuned for the complete destruction of the mind and self. Everything now exists to absolutely fry your dopamine receptors. Torrents and torrents of completely interchangeable, soul-less slop by design. My friends that game don't even like the games they play any more, social media has become a platform for influences and corporations to sell you products mixed between seconds-long videos you somehow spend hours watching but cannot remember just seconds after watching. Youtube feels like the same inconsequential video(s) and topics regurgitated over and over or the reaction "content creators" digesting media for you and telling you what to think so you no longer need to do it yourself. We're at a point where reactions to reactions are being sort after and basically how did we get here. We DEFINITELY need more retrospectives to consume so we don't actually need to engage any original of the original products just to make more time to consume more Youtube videos.

When was the last time you sat willingly in complete silence? No music, no gaming, no videos, no online content. Next time you're on a train or some other form of large-scale public transport take a moment to survey how many people are on their phones or listening to music. It feels as though we're no longer able to sit in our own thoughts any longer. We must have something pumping into our dopamine receptors to distract us and it no longer matters what it is.

We're literally all individually living out the plot of Click but managing to skip the fun parts of life too :-(

Truly, we're on the precipise of being lulled into complete stupification with the advent and current capability of AI. I'm starting to see Youtube music compilations that are composed by AI and almost totally indistinguishable from real music. Search any phrase and filter by most recent and you'll uncover an insurmountable torrent of AI generated garbage uploaded every second. I feel like such a crazy person writing this, but given how well this content performs and the amount of people that don't care or just willfulling lap it up, I truly feel as though we're only a couple of years off of a majority of people being wired into consuming only AI content every day. Now that pandora's box has been opened, what is there to even do about it?

How wild that ridiculous 4chan dead internet theory from forever ago unfortunately became very real. Even worse that so many people are being sucked into it. It almost feels like the concepts of a cyberpunk dystopia are here, just without any of the cool stuff and literally everyone is a cyber junkie or w/e.